Showing posts with label spiritual. Show all posts
Showing posts with label spiritual. Show all posts

Thursday, December 30, 2021

Strange Land: Check Your Programming

 A diversion from what I'm writing, to some degree. 

It's been suggested I read Pilgrim's Progress, by Bunyan. I get the gist that story, written in poem form is about someone moving from the land of destruction (Earth and our present life) toward Eternity and essentially our quest to go home.  Without having read it, here's my take on what I've heard about it.

None of us truly belong here. This is not the final destination. This life, is merely a road we are on. Our body is the vehicle. But who is driving it? We are inundated with advertising, social media, television, movies, video games, text messages, direct mailings. We are completely inundated with distraction and coercion. Buy that, do this, eat that, wear this, succeed in that, vote for them, hate the other crowd. 

Sunday, December 26, 2021

Small and Significant

 

Squirrel

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I've heard about people who have had things happen to them spiritually, that is seemingly instantaneous. But for me, I don't think this was it. Taking a step out, even in desperation is a step nonetheless. 

Saturday, December 25, 2021

The Awakening

Sky Light

1: Letting Go of Rage

It's hard to explain exactly how to start this, except to say that I'm in the throws of a spiritual awakening. My mother says that I've had one, but I say, no, I'm still waking. 

Three and a half years ago I attempted suicide. Twice. Ever since, it has been a struggle to motivate myself not to complete the task. Once you complete steps to cross that threshold, it's easier to want to do it again. With the epidemic becoming pandemic, my 8-years-in-the-planning trip overseas being canceled, it was hard to contain the rage growing inside me. A simple request by public health experts around the world was: stay put. If we all do it, we'll burn this thing out and life goes back to normal. A bare  blip on the radar in the annals of history. But no, we couldn't be told what to do because everyone complained, "I've got rights!"

 I became angry. Short-fused, less patient. I'm normally a pretty patient person. And then one day while working, I said to God, "your shoulders are bigger than mine. I can't handle this anymore".